A Life Unknown

Do you ever think about your future? Like what will your life be like in 5 years? Ten? Twenty even?

As a twentysomething that still has a lot of life left to live I can’t say that I have ever really thought deeply about my future because I already thought I had it mostly figured out. However, as it turns out I do not anymore.

I always thought that what I really want to do is to be a journalist working for a mid size paper in either New York,San Francisco or New Orleans. Truth is, I dont know about journalism as a career anymore. Its not that I dont think I could do it, because I love it still and writing about current events is something I could see myself doing…but I am just so turned off to becoming a member of the media now…

Modern journalism disgusts me so much because it is all about sensationalism and telling you “all the chilling details”. Open the paper nowadays or go online and you will see a lot of stories about “The fugitive ex cop” or “The Newtown Shooter” (I refuse to say their names out of respect for their victims) or you can read all about whatever news some reality celebrity is creating…you dont hear about things that are actual news. I do not want to hear about what the Newtown Shooters friends said about him, I dont want to read that cops manifesto about how he wants to kill cops, I do not want to hear about Kim Kardashians baby..I want to hear about the recovery from the Russian meteor; I want to hear about the escalation in action from North Korea and their threat to bring “Final Destruction” to South Korea; I want to hear about actual news and not someĀ asinine story about celebrities. I want media to stop telling us every detail of all these recent killers lives and to quit making them famous..because that is exactly what they wanted to happen…now these men will go down in history as shooters and killers and their victims will become, in the case of the Newtown,Connecticut shooter “one of the 26 people killed by this madman”

In addition to concerns about becoming part of an industry that isnt very respected anymore, I just find myself not knowing…Where do I see myself in 5 years? I really hope that I am not working graveyard at Winco anymore…I hope that I am making more than 10 dollars an hour..I really hope I have a job actually…I hope im not stuck in Eugene anymore and I am self-supporting and maybe I hope to be in some kind of long term relationship…but I dont know if any of those things will change

I have thought about what I could do besides Journalism..its so hard because I used to have a list of things I thought I could do, but some of them are unrealistic..I have thought I could be a teacher though..not to smaller kids, but maybe high school. I am really good with historical facts, writing and reading are a big passion of mine and I can eloquently explain many things about those two things but I have very little patience

Where do I hope my life will end up? I hope to have a good, steady job that isnt working at a retail store somewhere, I hope to be living somewhere that isnt Eugene. I want to wake up each day and say “my life is awesome”…Marriage and kids? I dunno…being single at this time kind of makes those kind of things hard to see

enjoy life because you never know where it will lead



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